Aug. 3, 2018

Tripping Over Triggers With Every Step... (Connie J...)

Lately, I feel like I have been tripping over my triggers with EVERY step I take. Feels like EVERYTHING I do, or anything anyone else does, makes me angry. I cry at the drop of a hat, whether it's happy or sad.

Right now, my Circle is so small, I  feel REALLY bad for the ones in it; but sooo grateful they're there. As far as my other "people", I hope they'll just understand where I am, and still be there when I'm ready. I just can't worry about that, right now.

I lost someone a little over two months ago, and it has left me feeling like a raw, gaping wound; with nerves sticking out, and misfiring all over the place!!!

Was talking to my Counselor, the other day, and I said it feels like I'm back, over twenty five years ago, when I was just starting my Healing Process. Let's just say, I was really out of control, inside.

We both pointed out, I am NOT there; but it FEELS that way. That's how those darn triggers play their wicked games; via your emotions.

I'm sharing this, because I grew up in a Domestic Violence situation, plus other forms of abuse. I HAVE dealt with the leftovers from all of that; but this loss, has my head all over the map.

I want to encourage ANYONE, if you're feeling this way, DO NOT GIVE UP. It WILL pass. The feelings now, while legit; ARE leftovers, and not permanent. Stay the course, you WILL get through it, and be okay. It's all part of the process, which is NOT fun, at times.

Have a good day, and be safe... #ENDtheSILENCEofVIOLENCE
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