Apr. 7, 2018

Control??! (Connie J...)

Feeling out of control
Goals remain just out of reach
Attempting to learn the lessons
The trials are designed to teach

The struggle is real
The search for myself goes on
Being controlled by others
Awaiting a "new dawn"

Growing weary in the battle
Perseverance grows weak
When I find it, can I handle
The control that I seek?

Is control REALLY possible?
Is it meant to be had?
Are we ultimately seeking
Something that could just end up bad?

So many questions
Can the answers be known?
Honestly, I bet if they ALL were
The mind would be blown

I just want peace
In a life full of chaos
So maybe it's NOT control
That I seek, it's just loss

Daily life wears me down
Is it respite I need?
Everything coming at me
Are they warnings to heed?

Am I losing myself
In these trials of life?
Getting caught in the mire
Of the stress and strife

Can I cause things to change
All those thoughts in my head?
Turn them to positives
Truly go where am led?

I'm thinking control
Is NOT the answer I seek
But this is also
Not the time to be meek

But empowered
This knowledge, every lesson learned
Feel myself getting stronger
Things beginning to turn

Leaving control behind
For it's really of the weak
And not the REAL ME
From what I've learned to speak

So control's NOT the answer
I had it all the time
To stand up tall
The power is mine...  #EtSoV
#ENDtheSILENCEofVIOLENCE